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My thoughts cut so deep inside,
But I have nowhere else to hide,
I've found it hard to find a better place,
in which I can confide.
The way I think, the things I say, and everything in between.
They make me feel like I could never, never be what you need.
I lie awake, I'm tired but I can't sleep.
My eyes are heavy, but my mind is racing, and it simply won't cease.
I know my pain, my pain won't go away,
but what hurts the most is knowing I can't escape.
Self-doubt takes control of me,
a broken mirror full of all I'll never be.
So hard to put it back together, when I can't find any peace.
The countless thoughts that slowly haunt
The life I have, the things I want,
The things I've got, and the things I need,
is everything that's slowly, slowly slipping out of reach.
I feel so lost, in this ocean that's my soul,
I'm holding ever tightly, but it's hard to stay afloat.
As water fills my lungs, I take my last breath, but what scares me the most is that I don't even care.
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Barely Beating
03:44
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What's the worst that can happen to you,
You've come so far now follow through.
In time I hope you'll see that, I only wanted the best for you.
And if you tear me apart, destroy what I am.
Inside you'll find my fears, that you've been feeding.
Yeah if you tear me apart, destroy what I am. Inside you'll find my heart, barely beating.
Won't you please free me from your teeth,
Take a step back, just let me breath.
Just this once cut me from your strings,
Remove yourself, just let me be.
For all the time I wasted, your words were never true. If only I could get back the years I've spent on you.
And if you tear me apart, destroy what I am. Inside you'll find my heart barely beating.
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Neck Deep
03:55
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Welcome to the bed of my mistakes
Content to lay there in pain that I create.
For I've burned all my bridges, and severed all my ties, with this final nail in the coffin, this solitude won't sleep tonight.
Chorus
I've buried the past, but I still can't forget.
I've covered my scars, but the pain still exists.
How can I blame you, for the things that I did, when in the end, it's me I can't forgive.
I've got nothing to hide, I've got nothing at all
I thought I had all the answers, how could I have been so wrong?
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To Use A Pen
05:09
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I know I'd given you a chance, another try to work this out, but the echoes in my head slowly fill me up with doubt. I couldn't tell you how I felt, so I chose to use a pen, and with every turn of my wrist the paper slowly read. "Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone. The walls are closing in. I'm on my own." I know you confessed all the lies, but I can't leave the past behind. I'm diving right back into the same old habits I drown in every time. I couldn't tell you how I felt, so I chose to use a pen, and with every turn of my wrist, the paper slowly read. "Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone. The walls are closing in. I'm on my own. Whatever happened to the way you wrapped your arms around me? Somewhere along the way you built these walls that now surround me. Sometimes I feel like I'm all alone."
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Out of Nowhere
04:01
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I remember the first day I met you.
Dressed in black, but with hope in your eyes.
In time I got to know you, enough to finally realize that you were the one for me, and maybe I was the one for you.
I waited so long for you to hopefully notice, but I was hopelessly in love, or just in love and hopeless.
But out of nowhere you were mine.
I held you tight and closed my eyes.
We said we'd always be enough for the both of us.
I remember our first night together, full of laughter and love in our hearts.
We said we'd last forever, but that was when time seemed to stop.
So we went on with our lives not knowing one day we would fall prey to the passing of time that let our emotions decay.
And when forever came calling we thought we could escape, but forever has a bad habit of not wanting to go away.
We thought we could escape our fates, so we kept silent in fear of letting our love fade.
But out of nowhere here we are.
We never thought we'd grow apart.
I said we'd always be enough, but then you called my bluff.
And I know somehow I'll survive, even though I'm not alright.
They say all wounds, they heal with time.
If one day you move on, just know that though we're done, there's no such thing as wasted time.
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I have these voices in my head, they surface from beneath
saying the same 4 words that haunt me in my sleep
"Am I good Enough?" the words echo and repeat, as this sinking feeling inside of me continues to increase
And I'm caught in the middle of what I think others think of me and what I think of myself.
and those thoughts burn slowly in my mind like a self-perpetuating hell,
Where I know I have the key, but can't escape this prison cell
I lie awake, I'm tired but I can't sleep.
My eyes are heavy, but my mind is racing and it simply won't cease.
I know my pain, my pain won't go away.
But what hurts the most is knowing I can't escape.
This fear is blinding, it's all that I can see,
So buried in the past that I forgot how to breathe.
And I was too afraid to just admit, that it was my own hands choking me
But who's to blame if this is all in my head?
The voices inside shout and scream that I'm better off dead,
and I've always found it hard to just block out everything that they have said
I feel so lost in this ocean that's my soul,
I'm holding ever tightly, but its hard to keep afloat,
As water fills my lungs, I take my last breath
But what hurts the most is knowing that I dont even care.
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